Pensée.

I can't rid of the nausea and dizziness. 
My mind is everywhere. 
And all I want is to wake up beside him.

I miss you more than ever as of lately. I find myself clinging to the stuffed animals you got me just as tight in the morning as last night. The scent of your cologne lingers and I can't seem to let go, even while I'm away dreaming.

I've been thinking about you more lately. I look at photographs we've taken and I fall even more in love with you, which seems highly impossible, but it still happens each time. I've wrote you love letters that you'll never receive and I'm amazed at how much I can say about a single person. I'm amazed at how much I love about you that you'll never know.

Lately, I've been sleeping less. I've been smoking more and eating less. I've been more artistic and less bored. I've been crying less, too. I guess the good and bad will even themselves out.

When I do get to see you, I'm so exhausted that I usually feel like I'm falling asleep and not really there. I want to be wrapped around you for all hours, I use to love waking up that way. 

A sigh.

Also in my life... I haven't really, and won't really, have time for photography or painting for a while I'm guessing...

I need my own house with my own room for painting.

My mind is everywhere right now.